I did a tarot card reading for myself last night. I usually only read myself once a year so last night was it. I have been obsessing lately over the upcoming long emergency and wanted to know if I should continue to prepare for it. Lately I've been more than a little concerned that we have passed the tipping point of sustainability on the planet. There are far too many indicators that we are in an increasingly fragile system, just waiting for collapse. My greatest concern is the lack of clean water to drink and feed the population of the planet. Scarcity is what concerns me, not a single catastrophic event.
So what does that have to do with trying to be a medium? Well nothing, except that I spend more time avoiding my inner self and meditation because when I do my little voice tells me this is true. Being a Capricorn I do not go to the bathroom without a plan A and plan B. Planning for contingencies gives me a level of comfort, perhaps a false sense of being in control. So, I have been planning for survival. That is the question I posed to the cards last night, with surprising results.
I use the Connolly deck and asked: Should I be preparing for a survival situation, no water - food - famine crisis?
Order of the cards and my interpretation: (inversed)
1. Queen of cups
2. Three of Pentacles
3. V The Hierophant
4. XX Judgement
5. Ten of Swords
6. (Nine of Cups)
7. Nine of Wands
8. (Knight of Wands)
9. Ten of Pentacles
10. (Page of Cups)
According to the book that comes with my cards...
1) "This covers you" - Queen of Cups - "Sensitive lady who relies on her intuitive ability rather than on common sense."
In the case of this question it is pure intuition, my rational side (common sense side) is screaming to "Stop! This is crazy."
2) "This crosses you for good or bad" - Three of Pentacles - "Well informed you have great skill, ability and talent. Recognition is due."
I am researching all aspects and consider myself better informed than most people on the condition we are in, poisoned water, global warming, over consumption... I feel a huge knot in the pit of my stomach.
3) "This is the basis, the root of the situation." - V The Hierophant - "...He who conforms and diligently searches for truth must recognize that he himself is not truth.... He traditionally understands all the ways of men."
This is the root of my concern, the way of mankind is not sustainable.
4) "This is behind you or in the process of leaving" - XX Judgment - "Self judgment, rebirth, a renewal of the inner you. Wonderful things are starting to happen. You have the ability to forge ahead and see what the future holds. Break away from conventional thinking and face life realistically."
This doesn't require any interpretation - it's straight forward -- I am looking at the future based on scientific research and I have definitely broken away from conventional thinking. It is a return to my inner self and acting on my research gives me a feeling that I'm doing something.
5) "This crowns you and could come into being" - Ten of Swords - "Extreme unhappiness, depression and a deep sense of loss. Allow new energy to transform you. Change is immenent."
Ok - holey cow - Already anxious - didn't need to know I was going to suffer a deep sense of loss. But it confirms a lot. I also feel that change is immenent.
6) "This is before me" - Nine of cups - reversed - "The wish card... Wish will not be fulfilled at this time."
This took a few minutes for me to figure out, but my wish has been that I'm crazy and that what I fear will not come true, because me being crazy is a far better outcome than what I fear. I had actually spoken this wish to my husband the night before I did the reading.
7) "This represents your own apprehensions" - Nine of Wands - "You are able to maintain control of your interests. Use discretion in any forthcoming adventure."
I am worried about being able to keep up a good face to the public - not to look like a lunatic while continuing my survival preparation. This card seems to indicate that I will be able to maintain my "normal" life and use discretion in my preparing for survival.
8) "This represents the feeling of others around you" - Knight of Wands - reversed - "You feel restricted by minor disputes. Young man possible cause."
Hello, has anyone met my husband? Eight years younger than me, but far more reserved. He's had to deal with a lot - psychic classes - table tipping - now survival and relocation... I do feel held back by him, I would have already relocated and done several steps to change my life if I was not married to him, but that does not mean that all the decisions I have made because of him are not the right ones in the end. I feel restricted, but so do teenagers when they have to be home by 11 pm on a school night. The restriction is not necessarily a bad thing.
9) "This represents your own positive feelings" - Ten of Pentacles - "Beginning to feel secure but slightly detached. Still anticipating full completion."
Yes, absolutely I feel detached, I can't imagine a whole bunch of people are preparing for what they think is the imminent collapse of society due to an impending water/food shortage. I am anticipating the full completion of my planning and preparations. I have a good support network, I will do this.
10) "This is the outcome" - Page of Cups - reversed "You will be offered help, possibly by a young person."
That is a little general, but it sounds positive, I cannot do this alone, I will need help, I hope it means that my kids will be helping.
