Charged up!

I was in that in-between state of awake and asleep and I could tell there was another entity (spirit?) with me. I could feel it and I was frightened. I thought, ok, if you are really here can you give me a sign that you are here, but don't scare me because I'm frightened and I don't want to open my eyes. Then very suddenly, as if in direct response to my request, I felt an electric charge run through my entire body. It felt warm and tingly from my head to my toes. It was a really strong charge that quickly dissipated. And I thought, holey cow! What is going on? I lay in bed with alternating thoughts of "don't open your eyes" and "wow, what do I do next?"

I am so reluctant to put this in my blog, it just makes me sound so completely crazy. But, the point of the blog is try to and be objective and log all the things that are happening. Unfortunately I haven't had the time to log everything, but this event was so bizarre I had to get up and make an entry.

What am I afraid of? I don't know, but I'm frightened. Probably just the unknown.

I have my first class tonight, meditation 101. Some of my friends are going too. Why is it that so many people (at least people I talk to) these days are trying to get in touch with their inner spirit? I would say spirit guides, but, that's really not it. It's more about getting in touch with yourself.

The last mediumship group meeting that I went to, one of the veteran psychics told me that I was moving very fast. Carrie confirmed that she thought it might all be coming at me pretty quickly. I guess? I have no reference point for anything like this. How would I know if I was moving fast, or slow as a snail? It's like someone flipped a switch and suddenly all these weird things that I was used to passing off, suddenly had an explanation.

What kind of things? Just the little day to day things, like erasing an address in my address book of a friend I hadn't talked to in four years, and knew the address was wrong anyway. How many people actually erase (with a pencil eraser) an old address? Don't we usually just cross it out and make a new entry (if you even keep a paper address book). And why even touch the entry at all, it wasn't like I was going to correct it and I didn't need the space. Within 12 hours I had an email from that friend... supposedly "out of the blue". She wrote and said "I'll bet your surprised to hear from me!" I told her, not really... - Those kind of things. Every single day of my life I have one of those kinds of events.

So, back to my electric charge, what was that? It was cool (not physically) and just OMG is that really happening? Did that really just happen in response to my question? Then the, how can I blog this? My husband is going to think I've checked into the funny farm if he reads this... But I have to have the strength to do this. Not a lot, just Medium Strength.